Lyra’s favourite song

I watch Star Trek: The Next Generation sometimes in the afternoons when I’m home on weekdays. Call it a not-so-guilty pleasure, if you like – I’m not ashamed of it. Usually I’m watching while I’m playing with Lyra, or cleaning, or doing laundry, or any number of other boring things.

A few weeks ago I noticed something that amused me. I thought I’d take a short video of it and share with all of you. I’m apparently imbuing my baby with at least some geekiness…

Cause & Effect – Sounds

Lyra has a strong grasp on cause and effect when it comes to sounds, recently. The following are the best examples I’ve seen:

Sophie the Giraffe: This is a super-trendy rubber food-grade painted teething toy in the shape of a giraffe. It came with the name Sophie. Sophie has a mild squeaker inside her – it’s not an annoying squeak nose, just a quiet one, which is good. Lyra has discovered that when she bashes Sophie on the floor, she squeaks. This is now a favourite pastime whenever she has Sophie in her hands.

The Piano: Adam plays piano with Lyra in his lap. She has not only learned how to bang on the piano keys to make sounds, she has also figured out by watching him that when he presses a specific button on the keyboard it changes the noise from piano to strings to oboe to whatever. She does both while sitting on his lap.

The Guitar: Lyra knows that when you pull your fingers along the strings of the guitar they make a noise. She also knows that when you smack the strings it makes a different noise. Noises are fun.

The wooden monkey rattle: When dropped on hardwood, the wooden monkey rattle makes a solid smacking noise – wood on wood. When in range, this is a repeated game.

Recorded music: Lyra knows that most songs seem to have accompanying visuals. When she hears a song she checks for said visuals on the tv screen and computer monitors.

And Finally…

The Djembe: So I saw this djembe for sale down at Lonsdale Quay on Friday when I walked down there with Eli. It was tiny… just the right size for, say, an eight month old. I considered the alternative – getting a plastic toy drum set or something similar from the toy store – and it seemed kind of pointless. Why not give her the real thing to start? It’s like learning to play guitar was for me – I got myself a reasonably nice sounding guitar, which meant that even if I wasn’t playing great, the guitar still sounded good – and that was encouraging. So why not give Lyra her own African hippie drum? So I did. She loves it, of course. She’s such a hippie. We’re such a hippie family.

Hippie Lyra and her djembe

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I have an appointment on Tuesday with an allergist. I’ve never had allergies before this, and I don’t even really know if what I have now is allergies or some weird lengthy cold that doesn’t act like a cold. It certainly acts more like allergies than a cold, however. I’m hoping the doctor can figure out what it is and I can remove it from my surroundings as much as possible (as in, I hope it’s not dust or cats, because those things don’t disappear in my life.) I don’t want to get on antihistamines if I can possibly avoid it – I’d rather deal with the sneezing and sniffling sessions than breastfeed with random drugs coursing through my veins, and I don’t intend to stop breastfeeding at this point.

Adam is sitting on the living room floor with Lyra. He is playing the guitar and singing for her, and she’s giggling, squealing, and helping strum from time to time. She likes the music, our little girl. She sits with him while he plays piano, too – she loves hitting the keys and seeing what sounds she can make. I should take a video of both sometime.

It’s been sunny and 10 degrees for much of this week. The croci have reappeared – the first sign of spring to me. I expect (and hope) that there is still some rain to come – we’ve barely had any this winter, and I’m sure the summer water stocks are comparatively low. I don’t really mind the rain… sometimes I even miss it.

In other news, we downloaded Noby Noby Boy for ps3, but haven’t tried it yet. I don’t really know what to expect, other than very, very weird things. Oh, and I picked up Final Fantasy IV, Chrono Trigger, and Big Brain Academy for the DS Lite, so far. I traded in a whole bunch of old games for store credit and used it to buy four new games (one for ps3 for Adam, Valkeria Chronicles.) I’m loving final Fantasy IV, haven’t started Chrono Trigger, and am liking the Big Brain Academy stuff (which I also liked for wii when we played it at my mom’s place.) I’m also playing Final Fantasy VII on the ps3 (for ps1, hooray backwards compatibility.)

Around the world, around the world

Cranky Lyra calms down and sleeps when we play Daft Punk for her. I guess some things carry over from the womb…

On Wednesday I broke down and went to Capilano Mall with Anne & Lyra to sign up for Telus TV. It’s going to be a couple of weeks before it’s hooked up – in the meantime I guess I’ll watch the Olympics (very fuzzily, since CBC comes in pretty craptastically on the rabbit ears.) The opening ceremony this morning was really good (to be fair, though, I slept through most of the countries’ athletes walking in, because I was desperate for just a little more sleep and that part was dull.) The choreographed stuff and the torch lighting was great, though.

Maybe I’ll start playing Final Fantasy VII sometime soon.

Adam’s been sick all week. He went back to work Monday and was sick by Tuesday. He stayed home yesterday, then went in this morning and came back within a couple of hours. This basically means that he’s avoiding both Lyra and I – he’s afraid he’s going to give his cold to us. I asked the midwife about it, and she told me that as soon as my body detected the illness it would have created antibodies in my breasts milk within about twenty minutes. How awesome is that?? Anyhow, to be safe, Adam hasn’t been picking Lyra up or anything, which has been tiring for me. However cranky she gets, however tired I get, however much I need a shower, I have to figure it out on my own for now. It’s been a bit frustrating at times, but I think I’m handling it okay. I’ve had a couple of people come by to hold her and entertain her for me so I can do other things, which has helped. For my sanity, however, I really hope Adam gets over this sickness soon. Also, for his health…

Lyra’s asleep in the car seat at the moment, and I’m playing Daft Punk and other similar style upbeat funky or techno music to keep her there for a while. If there was any question that this was Adam’s kid, that should nullify all doubts.

I’ve taken some more photos of her, but my CF Card reader broke. I need to get a new one – they have one at London Drugs, maybe next time I venture out for a walk I’ll stop in and pick it up. Stupid 6-in-1 card reader on my laptop doesn’t have CF.

Yesterday I took Lyra for a walk with spadoink‘s wife and dog. I’m trying to get out for good walks at least a couple of times a week. I walked down to the Quay with Ian on Wednesday, too. I have the baby in the sling when I walk for added exercise potential (and because it’s easier than the stroller.) I need to get myself in shape again. I’d really like a bike trainer I can use in the apartment… I miss biking.

A couple of videos…

A pair songs that I really love, by the Grapes of Wrath. I was trying to learn the guitar tab for All the Things I Wasn’t tonight – it’s tough. I’m not that good. I’m figuring out Peace of Mind, though.

My work’s auctioning off Police Tickets…

Foundation auctions Police concert tickets on eBay!

Don’t miss your chance to see the most popular band of a generation live!

The Police have provided one pair of tickets to the David Suzuki Foundation for auction on eBay. The two tickets are for row 11 on the floor for the Police concert on Wednesday, May 30, in Vancouver, B.C. at GM Place.

All proceeds will benefit the David Suzuki Foundation. This auctionis tax deductible for the amount spent minus the face value of the twotickets.

Sting has supported environmental causes for many years, and is anhonorary board member of the David Suzuki Foundation. Through theirreunion tour, the Police are helping to raise awareness about criticalglobal issues by supporting charities like WaterAid, the RainforestFoundation, Amnesty International, as well as performing in Al Gore’sJuly 7 Live Earth concert.

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The cold, and some Barenaked Ladies

So I’ve had a cold all week, since Sunday morning really. I blame it on mountain biking on Saturday – I did a lot of photography instead of riding, and when it started getting cold and rainy I was standing around in it instead of being active. I got a chill. By the time we got home from riding, I was freezing cold and couldn’t warm up. I took a hot bath, which seemed to help, and then a short nap before heading out to the Barenaked Ladies concert with Tara.

The concert was, naturally, fantastic. I always have a good time at their shows. We had seats on the floor, which meant that we couldn’t really see the whole stage because Tara and I are both not tall, but there were TV screens beside the stage by which to see. The benefit, to me, of sitting on the floor is that everyone stands up, and it everyone is standing up that means I can dance.

Yes, BNL Concerts are one of the few places that I will actually dance, and enjoy myself. I never did like going out to clubs to dance, it always felt really strange for me. The fact was, I figured people were likely watching other people dance at a club, and I didn’t want to be watched. At a concert, if I’m dancing, people probably aren’t watching me – they’re watching the band. And that is better for me. That way I can dance for me and not worry about what anyone else thinks.

I bought a BNL Iskin for my ipod, which is awesome. I also bought myself the ability to download the show from their website. I REALLY wanted to buy a hat, but I tried to be good and not spend too much money that we don’t have. Adam’s back working at the service centre, so his income’s been effectively cut in half, and we have to be more careful now.

Sunday we stayed home in the pouring rain and I edited photos. I had just enough energy to edit them and post them online, and I think that’s pretty much the last time I did much of anything besides stare blankly at my computer and go to bed early. I managed to do yoga once this week with Adam, but the congestion in my nose was terrifying while I did it (can’t breathe through the nose when it’s clogged,) so I didn’t try it again when he did it last night.

Otherwise, this week has been mainly get up, take dayquil, go to work (where things are INSANELY BUSY because of the Tour), take more dayquil, come home, attempt to eat dinner, take NyQuil, pass out. Repeat. Except for Wednesday, when we met up with Tara and Garnet for dinner downtown. I could only eat about five bites before getting them to wrap up the rest, and the trip home on transit with Adam felt painfully long. We got home, and I passed out.

It’s weird, it’s not a bad cold, it’s just incredibly tiring. I’ve barely kept up with anything this week. Taking today to try and catch up on things, since I feel so out of touch. I should do some laundry, and think about cleaning the horrifying mess that is our bedroom. The lack of bedroom furniture and places to put clean clothing is making me crazy again.

Adam didn’t get the job he interviewed for. He’s getting kind of depressed and frustrated. He’s usually a pretty positive person, but in the past while he’s just been getting incredibly negative – it’s hard to watch, and I feel totally helpless to do anything for him. I wish I could fix things. I can’t.

Dayle stinks. I should give him a bath.

A music-on-shuffle meme

While I await the towels in the dryer to finish, I will do a meme. And then I’ll go out and do something with the afternoon. Dayle escaped out the sliding door to chase birds. It is true.

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question.

1. What does the next year have in store for me?
One Day I’ll Fly Away – Nicole Kidman (Moulin Rouge)

2. What is my love life like?
Original Oddstep (Revised by Grand Unified)

3. What do I say when life gets hard?
Window – Fiona Apple

4. What do I think about when I get up in the morning?
Shotgun – Duran Duran (yeah, I’m not a morning person.)

5. What song will I dance to at my wedding?
(wait, I’m already married…. but anyway…) Gravedigger (Acoustic) – Dave Matthews

6. What do you want as a career?
Desert Train – Kimmie Rhodes

7. Your favorite saying?
When Doves Cry – Barenaked Ladies

8. Favorite place?
Better off as we Are – Blue Rodeo (hey, I do love North Vancouver…)

9. What do you think of your parents?
Prelude in D-flat Major, Op. 28 No. 15: “Raindrop Prelude” – Richard Tilling, piano

10. Where would you go on a first date?
Unbelievable – EMF (this is a place?? also, still married.)

11. Describe yourself?
Wouldn’t it be good – Danny Hutton Hitters

12. What is the thing I like doing most?
Unfinished Sympathy – Massive Attack

13. What is my state of mind like at the moment?
Tranquility Base – Bryan Weirmier

14. How will I die?
Surrender – Evanescence

15. What do you do when you see your friends?
Disenchanted – My Chemical Romance

16. How does your boyfriend/girlfriend (husband!) make you feel?
Everyone’ll Let you Down – Philosopher Kings (wow. that’s harsh. seriously. I don’t feel that way.)

17. How does your ex make you feel?
Don’t get your back up – Sarah Harmer – All right, the thing about this one is… it was THE song that I associated with the breakup with Jay, my last ex before Adam. I listened to it frequently. It described how I felt about the entire situation. Every time I hear this song I think about breaking up with Jay. That’s just nutty.

18. If you were to die today, what you would feel like?
Dreams – The Corrs

Save me from a Villainous imagination

I got Adam to pick up a yoga dvd from his work. We’ve now gone through the dvd twice, once on Sunday and again this evening after work. We rather need a second yoga mat – our floor is not good for yoga without one. The palms of my hands are killing me. I think he’s enjoying the yoga though. Or at least not hating it, and that’s something.

Huffy has been in the shop since Friday. Something about a part for they power steering pump they needed not coming in on Saturday, getting re-ordered, then not making it in until this morning sometime. They have apparently fixed the issue (also known as the hideous noise coming from under the hood – likely demons) and given huffy an oil change and general tune-up. $400 later and we’re thinking about grounding huffy for a while for bad behaviour.

Adam’s work is currently kind of weird. He’s on these contracts that last a week, three weeks, a month, etc., and in between getting sent back to his job at the service centre. He’s becoming very frustrated with being shuffled around from place to place where he’s useful, without anyone really committing to giving him a real full time position. I think his work might have commitment issues, and really all he wants is someone to go steady with…

I haven’t been good at listening the past couple of weeks. I’m going to work on that.

I quit being self-sacrificing and went ahead and got a ticket to the BNL show on Feb. 2nd. Enough with the telling Adam he can buy games and then feeling guilty for wanting to spend money on a ticket that I really, really want. We went to the Billy Talent / Rise Against / Anti-flag / Moneen show last week, and being in that arena full of punk bands and teenagers full of that energy that only comes from seeing a band you love made me want desperately to go see one of my bands. I do like Billy Talent, but the shows where I know the words to every song – those bring me to a place of joy that I can’t really explain.

The most interesting thing for me personally about the Billy Talent show is the impact that absorbing all that energy has on me. I’m a sponge for emotions, and I have been for as long as I can remember. In an arena where a huge crowd is feeling so much of the same emotion, it has the most amazing effect on me – I got overwhelmed over and over again as waves of that energy hit me in full force. It was enough to make me cry, over and over again. I kept having to hide and pretend I had something in my eye to get rid of another tear. It wasn’t a sad thing, not at all… just an overflow of passion and positive energy that I couldn’t contain.

It’s addictive. I want more. I’m listening now.

Rainy November

I read that November is the rainiest month in Vancouver. Thus far it’s proving accurate. I don’t really mind the rain this early on, it hasn’t had a chance to seep into my bones and make me forget what the sun looks like. The rain at this point still gives me a sense of calm and connectedness with the world.

As such, I can’t blame my melancholia on the rain.

I’ve discovered that one of the women I work with is a mountain biker, perhaps around the same level as I am. If it was pre-rainy-season, this would mean I have someone to go riding with that isn’t the bunch of boys with whom I currently ride. Since it’s rainy, it means that we’ve started making plans to go riding when we can. It will be nice.

I’m feeling a little like a creative failure at the moment. I decided not to do NaNoWriMo because I didn’t want to commit the time to it and because I didn’t have an idea. Plus, I haven’t finished editing last year’s (I hate editing so very much) and I feel I should really do so before starting something new. The problem is, I don’t feel like anyone really wants to see anything I’ve created these days. Even if I do finish editing and Vachel sends me the drawings he’s doing for the story, and I go and self-publish it, I have a feeling the whole thing will go the way of my photo site – no one’s going to actually buy a copy.

The new site, which I put so much work into and meant a lot to me to get done, has proven to be basically pointless. I feel as though I might as well take it down. Sure, if I had some marketing maybe people would buy a picture or two, but I don’t, and I am useless at self-promotion, and the last thing I want to do is go out into a community and try to sell myself. That just makes me feel worse about myself, like I’m a fraud on top of being useless.

Photo a Day is done at the end of the month. Perhaps after that I should just stop for a while. I create things to share them, and if no one’s looking then I lose a lot of motivation to create. I’m not going to be altruistic and tell you that I do it for my own satisfaction – that isn’t how it goes. My satisfaction comes from sharing it.

As for music, I’m pretty much nothing without a facilitator of some kind, and that is something I don’t have. Adam’s afraid if we work on things together we’ll end up in fights. I’m not convinced of that, but if he thinks it’ll happen then chances are it’ll be a self-fulfilling prophecy. Again, going out to meet strangers to work with will not happen – I don’t have the confidence to meet people and make friends with them very well. I’ve reached a point that I’m considering joining a choir, even though I really don’t like choir music all that much, just for the opportunity to sing.

I’m kind of hoping when I have Fridays off (starting soon) that I’ll take that time alone to work on things on my own. Maybe something will come of that. I may get to work on a Podcast through work, too, which I’d find really interesting – it would be very nice to use some of the stuff I learned in college again, since I haven’t really done so since I was doing the FneuCast way back when.

Bleh. None of it matters. I’m insecure and frustrated.

I picked up the tickets for the Billy Talent show in January. That will be fun.

The rain just picked up. It’s going nuts out there. Storm warning yay – something 100mm of rain projected for tonight.

Headache update (this is for me, because I don’t remember to keep track of these things anywhere else…)
Wednesday: Headache all day, pretty bad, and advil didn’t help.
Thursday: Headache in the morning, went away with advil, then came back in the afternoon. mid-level.
Friday: Headache at night
Saturday: Headache most of the day
Sunday: Woke up with the headache, went back to sleep hoping it’d go away, woke up again and still had it. Centralized behind the eyes and the back of the neck (as per usual.) Avoiding the computer much of the day in the hopes that might help, it didn’t. About to take some advil.

I’ve increased my water intake all week in the hopes of making the headache(s) stop, thinking it might be dehydration. It hasn’t helped with headaches, so I don’t think that’s it.