Wherein I complain about bronchitis and cashflow

My bout of coughing fits wassn’t letting go of me, and Lyra has been having some trouble sleeping due to her cough for the past week, so I took the two of us in to see our doctor this morning instead of going to daycare/work. As it turns out, I have bronchitis and Lyra is mostly okay but has a bit of croupiness to her cough, which may or may not need treatment. I, however, get to take antibiotics for the next X number of days. Yay. Speaking of which, I’m due for the next pill right now.

I kept Lyra home for the rest of the day and took the day off myself to try and rest. This was a foolish plan on my part, since taking care of Lyra during the day is in no way a means to resting. The girl would not nap at all – I got ten minutes of nap out of her on my lap in the early afternoon, which ended abruptly with a phone call and a requirement to get my laundry off the balcony so they could paint. When I tried to settle her back down for the next two hours, she babbled incessantly at me, crawled around the bed, played with her Ugly doll, and generally just refused outright to sleep. I was beyond frustrated and exhausted. I finally just gave up trying to put her to sleep, and let her run around like a maniac for the rest of the day. In retrospect, I should have taken the time to drop her at Daycare after the doctor’s appointment. I’ve learned my lesson – tomorrow, the girl is going in to daycare and I am staying at home and not really working.

Well, not entirely working, anyhow. There are some things that I need to get done in the morning for work, but they’re easily done remotely and I’ll sort them out pretty easily I think. After that I’m just going to try and relax and let the antibiotics do their thing. Yesterday I managed to pull a muscle in my back from coughing. Today I had no energy at all. Last week is kind of a haze of randomness in my head – I don’t really remember what I did at all.

It’s bad timing for me to be missing work – there’s a lot going on (isn’t there always?) and we’re closing for the winter holiday in two weeks, so there isn’t a lot of time left for me to get it all done. The doctor, however, told me outright to stay home and recover (she offered a note in case the office requires it) so I’m going to listen to her, since I’m damn tired of all this coughing and soreness and general malaise. It’s never a good time to be sick.

That’s really all that’s going on for me right now. Adam’s unused URL automatically renewed this week – maybe this year we’ll do something with it. Who knows. I somehow doubt it. Guess I should buy hosting for it or something. I also hope to do some redesigning of my own website soon, but haven’t had the energy to really think about it lately. I want to work on it during the office closure, when I’ll have some time during the day to myself while Lyra’s at daycare. Plus I have another web project that I have utterly ignored – I would really like to revisit that and figure out what to do with it. Probably should buy hosting for that, too. Except I can’t afford any of these extra expenses right now.

I took a good long look at our monthly expenses vs. income this week, and reached a conclusion that I’m not particularly fond of. I was hoping in the next year we would be able to move out of our current apartment (which we love, but is getting too small) into a bigger place, preferably some sort of townhome with a small yard where Lyra can play outside. I’ve even been looking around at various options to see what’s available and in what price ranges, and it seemed like it could be something we could manage… but to be honest, we just can’t.

With the new car payments & insurance & the other usual expenses, as well as paying 900$/month on daycare, we’re just not able to take on any more expenses. The rental cost increase for us to move up to a townhome is (minimum) an extra 300$ a month. This is assuming we move further away from my work, which also means my transit costs would go up by either 50 or over 100$ (depending on if I was taking regular transit or West Coast Express). There is no real possibility at this point in time for either of us to bring in an extra 400$ a month. Adam’s work has has a salary freeze since a few days after he was hired – he’s never seen any kind of raise. My office has a freeze as well, due to the economic downturn and all that. And 400$ a month is nearly 5000$ a year – that’s no cost of living increase.

So it’s just not possible for us to move. If we weren’t paying for daycare, then we’d be set, but we can’t exactly drop that. It’s just frustrating… our place is too small these days for all of us, now that Lyra’s running around everywhere. We haven’t had a dining room table since she was born – we eat on the couch at the coffee table every night. We can’t really use the laundry machines in our building’s basement because the dryers take three runs to dry things – which means a single load of laundry ends up costing 5$.

Meh. I’m just complaining now. I’m disappointed. There’s nothing to be done about it at this point. It’s all little details that add up to being frustrating for me. It’s not the end of the world. To distract me from my irritation, here is a photo of Lyra in Tofino wearing a fairy costume.

Fairy Lyra in the wind