Can’t quite shake it…

You know, I really am working on my positivity. It may not seem like it, but then this whole livejournal thing is a venting machine (like a vending machine, but not nearly enough chocolate.)

Adam’s feeling better tonight after going to see a Naturopathic Doctor. Go figure. He’s not healed, but a lot of his pain is gone. This is good.

I, on the other hand, haven’t been able to not feel painfully bored while sitting at home for weeks now. This just means that I don’t really feel like spending time at home, and when I am at home I start to dwell on the things that really bother me right now – which translates into basically not liking myself very much. I’ll leave out the steps in between.

I pulled out my small collection of polished stones. I love how the polished smooth quartz looks like water solidified. I love the fractal-like patterns in the red stone, and the solid white triple stripe in the blue-green. It’s been so long I’ve forgotten what they all are except for the quartz. They used to calm me. I have one of the larger amethyst stones we got in Thunder bay on the way back from Ontario on my desk at work. It seems to help when I get stressed, in the sense that playing with it helps me relax my hands.

I’d like to turn one of my quartz stones into a necklace. I also want to get around to making jewelry with the amethyst from Tbay. Need to buy more supplies for that.

It’s nearly November. Maybe this is just autumn blahs. Maybe it’s just me always finding something wrong.

I should put on headphones and lose myself for a while.


  • jerronimo

    October 29, 2005 at 8:19 pm

    “water solidified”

    um… you mean… Ice?

    • Jenny Lee Silver

      October 29, 2005 at 8:22 pm

      No, it’s prettier than ice. It looks like it should move, like Mercury does.