Have to take Huffy in to get an oil change and a quick checkup before we decide if we can afford insurance or not. The old insurance expires after today. Still not sure if we can afford it, and we haven’t been using the car much or anything (getting Adam to work on time Sundays, getting groceries, that sort of thing,) but I’m really not liking the idea of just having it sit in the parking lot with no plates and no insurance.

I need to sit down and work out a budget. I’m afraid to, though, because I’m somewhat sure that we won’t be able to take on the insurance expense right now.

Today is not a Happy Jenny Day.


I made Matzo Ball soup tonight. Manischevitz, even. Or however you spell it. It turned out well.


We finally got our MSP card numbers, after complaining loudly to the people at the MSP office. This means we can finally get doctors and have our proper checkups done and such – it’s been nearly two years for me, and that’s not something I normally let slide. As for Adam, he went to another walk-in clinic today, where they prescribed him his third round of antibiotics and suggested he may have a bladder infection. We’re hoping that’s the worst of it. He’s stoned on Tylenol 3s now on top of the antibiotics. He also won’t be going to work tomorrow, because really, who can work effectively on T3s?

I got bored tonight and put together a resume to post online. Go me. Or something.

My frustration levels with work are increasing daily. I do not work well with things that stand monolithically in the way of my getting things done, and when I am not given the power to move or change these things, and there is no way to get around them, I become increasingly angry. I like to get things done. Go figure. I can’t wait for them to hire the new CSR, I just don’t have the patience to keep doing that job on top of the rest of them. At this rate, I don’t have the patience to keep up with what I’m already doing.

I was planning to write about how my online friends are the only ones I’m really comfortable talking about things that are bothering me, how I don’t really talk to people on the phone or in the real world and actually let my feelings show because I don’t think anyone really cares. At least here I can pretend people really care (and to some extent they do) even if they aren’t directly reacting the way we do in the offline world. Later tonight, though, I spoke to my father-in-law on the phone. Adam talks to his family a lot about what’s wrong. I’ve never felt the same connection, really. Too busy trying to fake it at being strong and successful. But tonight, when I talked to my father-in-law, he told me that I should call and talk to him any time if I need to… and right now I think I really need that. It’s hard trying to be optimistic and strong when Adam’s going through all this hard stuff, but that’s what I have to be – I have to be totally supportive of him. That means I can’t really let myself get weak on him, the way I would for anything else. It’s so amazing… I felt like my father-in-law really meant it, that he really wanted me to call and talk to him, that he honestly understood what I’m probably going through and how I’m trying to be strong about it. I’ve so missed having a good, solid father figure in my life – it’s been a gaping hole for a long, long time now. I nearly cried.

So yeah. I’m being strong and it’s making me feel the pressure a bit. But I have this forum, and I have my new dad, and I know I can get through this because I’ve been through worse…. just never on behalf of someone else before. But it’s good to know there’s someone I can call.


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Watching: Babylon 5 season 3
Reading: Wil Wheaton – Just a Geek
Listening: Moulin Rouge Soundtrack
Thinking: About many many things. I want to write a proper entry about them all. Maybe tomorrow.

Halloween Meme

I like halloween.

My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul
jennylee goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as Uncooked steak.
artyste gives you 2 light blue grapefruit-flavoured pieces of chewing gum.
ashkitty gives you 1 orange licorice-flavoured jawbreakers.
duhbigman tricks you! You lose 2 pieces of candy!
ginamoog gives you 14 dark green lemon-flavoured gummy bats.
grindbastard gives you 13 light orange vanilla-flavoured gummy bats.
jerronimo gives you 1 dark green orange-flavoured gummy worms.
just_joolie gives you 13 green tropical-flavoured gummy worms.
mindexplodes tricks you! You get a wet rag.
msfancypants tricks you! You lose 12 pieces of candy!
violet_things tricks you! You lose 7 pieces of candy!
jennylee ends up with 23 pieces of candy, and a wet rag.
Go trick-or-treating! Username:
Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern.

Hooray for wet rags! Thanks mindexplodes!!


To distract myself from the things that are bothering me, I have a meme. And also Dayle.

Darkest Before Dawn
You are 72% along the path.
Carrying little with you but a great store of knowledge, you are not
even sure what more you seek. The last part of the journey is the most
difficult, yet you face it with perseverance, having learned much to
sustain you already. Soon all will be revealed…

“Doubt can only be removed by action.” – Goethe

artwork by Hans-Werner Sahm

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:

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You scored higher than 80% on progress

Link: The Esoteric Path Test written by spiral9 on OkCupid Free Online Dating