Sometimes I get this sort of feeling of tense sadness that is almost more physical than it is emotional. I’m feeling that right now. It’s like a physical pain tied to an emotional response. When it got bad, really really bad, was when I used to hurt myself because I couldn’t stand feeling physical pain without having something physically wrong, so I’d create something.

What I’m feeling right now isn’t so bad that I’m going to hurt myself, so don’t worry about that. It’s just that sort of thing that I’m feeling right now. I kind of want to curl up somewhere. I think I’ll go watch About a Boy on CITY.

I feel very young right now.