A nice evening overall

Adam & I went out tonight with Lindsay (from work) and Ian (not roommate Ian, another Ian.) We had dinner and drinks at Murphy’s Law, which was great, then walked along the beach and headed towards our house, ending up at Mersini’s where we had another drink and Ian & Lindsay had a belgian waffle.

It was a good night overall, lots of good conversation was to be had, which was nice. I’ve kind of been feeling like I’m incapable of being interesting lately, because I just haven’t had anything to say for what feels like months. Just feel like I’m disconnected from everything, and have felt that way for a while. It makes me feel sorry for myself (which is never a good thing, since I really hate when I’m feeling sorry for myself because if I’m feeling that way then I don’t even want to be in my own company, so I feel even worse because I figure if I want to avoid me then so does everyone else. Yes, I think in too many assumptive circles. Is assumptive a word?)

At any rate, all I’m really trying to say is that I feel boring, and actually going out and having an interactive good conversation that I felt like I was a part of really helped me to get rid of that feeling. I need more conversations like that, I need to be with people I connect with more often. It makes me feel more… real, I guess.

Cyn mentioned the 3 Day Novel contest. I’m starting to consider it (like I do every year, Pinky.) I don’t know, though. It’s a lot of money to spend on what basically ends up being a writing exercise and a challenge to myself. I should theoretically be able to challenge myself that way without spending 50$ on it… theoretically. Except I know that that’s mostly a lie I like to tell myself. I shall have to consider more, I still have some time to do so. The difference this year is I actually have an idea.

By the way, my Tom Waits mix CD from the USA is fantastic. That is all.


  • proof

    June 28, 2004 at 7:02 am

    ugh… that contest is so awful. I can’t believe A) people would publish something written so fast. B) anyone would buy it.

    • Jenny Lee Silver

      June 28, 2004 at 8:45 am

      It’s not about the publishing or reading of it. I certainly wouldn’t expect it to be anything written over three days to be any good, after all, but it’s some sort of motivation to actually sit down and write something. I doubt I’ll do it, I haven’t had motivation to write anything in years. I guess I’m no longer a writer.

      • testytree

        June 28, 2004 at 10:03 am

        You still write in this journal….

        • Jenny Lee Silver

          June 28, 2004 at 10:09 am

          that’s not real writing in my mind… it’s just journalling. Which is a sort of writing, but it’s not fiction, it’s not poetry, it’s not even articles like I used to write. And I haven’t written anything that I’d be proud to show people in a very long time. This is just random thoughts… it’s not concentrated writing.

      • proof

        June 28, 2004 at 1:27 pm

        Yeah i realized after I posted the comment that the implication was that this was a bad thing because of the publishing/reading aspect….

        which was really more of an after thought, and I was really tired.

        Honestly, as a writint “tool” just to get yourself flowing I can see some benifiets. But yeah, you shouldn’t have to waste 50 bucks to do something that is basically just going to be a brain dump.