Greetings, JennyLee —

Here is your horoscope for Friday, May 30th:
Be less serious and more accepting. A burst of new energy makes your recent course of action look like a waste of time. For each reason that you find to be happy, the Universe provides you with two more.

So now that I’m working up here for the summer, all I need to do is secure some form of part time employment in Toronto come fall. There were a couple of people who sounded like they would be interested in hiring me by then, but I haven’t heard from them in a while, so I can’t really count on anything from there. Maybe when I move back down I’ll find something… it would be a lot easier on my mind if I could find something before then, but I’ve learned that it’s nearly impossible to get a job in a city that’s five and a half hours away from where you live.

Twig is sleeping in the mousepad because I wouldn’t let her sleep in my lap. The freak follows me around everywhere, and chases my own cats away every chance she gets. Poor Dayle, she really hates him.

Adam, Jordy and his mom are moving the last of the stuff out of the cottage. Today’s the closing date. No more cottage. Our last weekend there was good, and I’ll always keep the place in my memory. Many important things happened in that cottage.

I’ve determined that sanity is overrated, and I will now allow apathy to take over from things that bother me about living here. Or at least I will try. I’m also not going to hope for anyone to visit me anymore. When they’re here, then I’ll get excited, and not a moment before. Disappointment gets to me too easily, and many people have told me they’re coming to visit, but not one has actually managed the trip yet. Not that I blame them, it’s a long drive. And it’s my own fault I get my hopes up.

Blue Rodeo is coming to play here in June. That’ll be a highlight of my summer. I hope I can afford tickets before they’re sold out.

Maybe I should make a to-do list for myself… then I’d have something to do.

  • Laundry
  • Put dishes away
  • Clean kitchen (did this last night after dinner, but it’s messy again)
  • Throw all clothes piled on the hot tub into a garbage bag (Jordy’s stuff… it’s been there a month now, I’m tired of looking at it.)
  • Plant morning glory seedlings in ground
  • Scan negatives of the skidoo trip to the cottage, transfer picstures to upstairs computer and email to Vachel
  • Finish accounting info for Dr. Silver.
  • Shower
  • Make & eat lunch
  • Memorize some more Blue Rodeo songs on guitar. They’re the only ones I have books for.
  • Try and find the cordless phone that goes in our bedroom. It’s been missing since we got back Wednesday.
  • Find new reasons to be happy. Not that the old ones aren’t good, but it’d be nice to think up some new ones. Some specific, non-vague reasons would be nice… reasons that have to do with right now, rather than ‘in a few months’ or ‘in a year or two.’
  • Come up with a project to waste 36 black & white pictures on, as the only film I have is a roll of black & white 36. My usual nature photography stuff won’t cut it, since I’m not ansel adams and I don’t know his technique of exposure that makes nature b&w pictures look intense. My b&w nature pics never satisfy me… I like colour for that.
  • Do aforementioned project of 36 b&w pictures.

    There, that should help.