I have lots of time for thinking.
I don’t even know what kind of job I’m looking for. You could say that’s bad or good, depending on how you look at it. Leaves me open to lots of things, makes it hard for me to focus on anything.
Really, honestly, truly, I just want to go back to school and do it right this time. No more just going to school because I have to escape from home, or having emotional and mental breakdowns that ruin my year, or getting so messed up on anti-depressents that I stop caring what’s going on with my life and don’t bother to show up for the final practical exam… I’d like to go to school because I choose to, because I want to. I have a feeling that’ll make all the difference in the world. That, and the fact that I’m far more stable now than I ever was then.
Now I just need to pay off my old student loans and then find money to go to school – or get new student loans. Such an inefficient system we have here…