I’m afraid of not knowing what’s on the other side. Maybe that’s what I need right now, though… maybe that’s why it scares me so much. I’ve always been one with a plan, a place to go, someone to fall back on when I leave someone else… I treated relationships like that when I was in high school and college, I wouldn’t leave my boyfriend until I knew I had some other guy interested in me, someone who might want to take care of me… I have never left a job without knowing where I was going to the day after my last day… There has always been somewhere to go. And now there’s really nowhere, and I don’t know what’s on the other side, and it’s scary and dark and uncertain… and maybe that’s what I need right now.