It’s strange how my emotions translate into physical reactions. I don’t breathe right for a while, my head starts to hurt, I feel heavy and exhausted when I got enough sleep… as though my neck is going to stop holding my head up, as if my hands are just going to fall limply useless at my sides. It’s these times that I know I have to avoid alcohol, avoid things that may hurt me, sharp things, fingernails even, because I get numb and lose contact with myself and I don’t realize what’s happening inside or outside.

…my senses finally blurred

1 Comment

  • ginamoog

    December 3, 2000 at 10:32 pm

    I wish I could be there to give you a hug, but I will see you tomorrow and will give you a big one..
    *sigh* All I can say is that I have been there and am still there sometimes. Sometimes it’s just a process we have to go through, it’s called confusion and maybe you have to break through it somehow, some way.. I still haven’t found the answer yet either.